I don't know how to communicate that without people thinking it's about them or that they have to fix me. Or my bigger fear, that they will think my 'stuff' too hard to deal with and withdraw from me. Been there, done that. It hurts bad.
So, yeah, right now, my answer is I. Don't. Know. That's not all bad. It's honest. I can live with honest. If others around me can't, it's not my issue. I have to remember that. Keep reminding myself.